needle in a haystack

exactly, this is what i've been! a needle in a haystack, as much as i hate to admit it. and it's not like i can help it being that tiny, insignificant needle. exit from the scene and not one person will bat an eyelid. alright ignore the bad english, just let me grouse, for once.

to think i've failed to realise it all this while - there're probably 476 other people who can offer what i can offer. and did i mention they could give more than i can? no, i'm not even wanted in the scene. i forced my way in, grit my teeth and foolishly tried to climb through that huge haystack, hoping to reach the top, just so that THAT one person will take a second look. but oh, how foolish can one get? i am but a tiny needle.

alright it really is time to pick up the pieces and move on. don't look back. in restrospect, however (not trying to sound oxymoronic here), i never should've entertained the thought of diving back in when i first decided to move out of it. one big mistake i made in my life. BIG MISTAKE. then again, who doesn't make mistakes? oh wells.